I dont think love is meant for me

I 36f Ended it with my ex yesterday(33m). It was an extremely intense relationship. My love language is looking after people and I managed to get lost in that.

I advocated for him, supported him.and stood by as hes worked through his issues and promised things will get better.

Fast forward he gets promoted at work, moves in with his best mate and our relationships no longer a priority. I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get in the situation again where I was begging for the bare minimum out of someone so I walked (he had ample chance to change)

Im raw....barely out the crying in my ned non stop stage of raw.

Feeling alot of dejav. I'm so fed up of being a rehabilitation centre. Men pass through my life with their issues, I support them through them then I end up discarded and they move on into the sunset.

Theres a few who even meet their forever person because they learned lessons from thier time with me.

This one time I hoped I'd found my "person" now we have each other blocked everywhere and I'm in bits.