The universes sick joke

Did you think about me as much as I thought about you these last couple of years? Is that why you immediately followed me? Are we soul tied?

I know you had been drinking when you sent that text. Was it liquid courage needed or was it a drunken mistake? I guess I won’t know. Either way It got me seriously thinking about visiting you. However, what would that accomplish? We would still live thousands of miles away from eachother and I’d just be waiting for the inevitable goodbye, just as you have done previously.

God, how I’d immediately run to your side like a lovesick puppy dog if it was possible. You are my weak spot, and I’d do anything for you if you asked. Mostly.

That is to say that I cannot destroy the progress I have created in order to be with you. I’m tied to here, for at least another 9 months. I’m almost in the green, it’s been a long time coming.

So… the question is, are you willing to meet me in the middle this time? Will you wait for me? I love you, deeply. Will that suffice to keep you in my life?

I can’t really send this to you, because deep down I know the answers to all of these questions.

-A