i'm so tired

i'm 16 and i'm so ready to leave like naturally you'd just think teenage angst but when you have a dead fucking dad and an entire family already moving on without you it's honestly kinda promising,. i can't even find a job and my social anxiety and body dysmorphia don't let me exist in public spaces and because of that everyone just fucking insults me during school i really don't have anyone. it will be two years this october since my dad died, and 5 months or so after that anniversary, i'll be moving in with my mom's new boyfriend unwillingly and sharing a living space with his son that doesn't wear deodorant:)

i mean, why even bother anymore? is anyone even going to read this ?