Help with my gender

Helloo! This is my first time posting on reddit so sorry if it's the incorrect flair or something

Also english is not my first lenguage so sorry for the bad grammar

So um for a some time I've been Apeirongender, I felt like everything and nothing at the same. For me it felt like a perfect 50/50 between Agender and Pangender

But then my Pangender side started losing strenght, like I knew it was still there but it felt like my Agender side was eating it

And then I felt no longer the Pangender side so I went completely Agender

And now for some reason I feel back to the start! Like not a perfect 50/50 but I feel the Pangender side came back again

I'm so confused, is this some sort of Flux thing? Or Fluid? Is there any term for this?

I really need help T-T