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They say pressure makes diamond What have u done to me god?other became diamond how the hell am still coal

What have you done to me god?others have blossomed..I stay tight as a bud..

Why is it always a life lessons for me and not the fruit for me

Why is it always i feel this numbness the depression the sadness nd the emptiness

Why is it even right decision feels wrong Why is it i don't feel motivated why it is am loosing interest in everything

Why is it am not smiling no more when I play football or do something I used to enjoy

Why is it its always my patience nd not my turn

Why is it i feel this way why it is my heartbeat increase..when I feel something or should I say nothing why it is the one who helped everyone is now helplessl why it is someone who was there for everyone is alone now

Why is it the one was once smiling nd calm is silent and lost

Why is it that I feel its enough, why it is intended never got what I deserved but got what was left over not even what I needed

Why is it always a ray of hope but never the whole escape

Why is it i still find myself feeling lost overthinking nd reaching for air i wana just drown

Why is it always wrong time for me Why is it am damaged healing other but never the one to find my escape or my healer

Nd why is it I crave everything yet fear its gonna be not enough or too much for me

They say u give love u think u deserve ..but in my case it is i give my garden to people who gives me just the flower

Why is it I feel night is the longest time when am alone and shortest when am happy

Why is it I feel to put the face people like i became the actor who got really good at being on today but when I turn off am in shadows

Why is it I crave all this , why is it I feel this emotions out of nowhere...wish I could bottle up nd just live life ...

So why is it why god why its always me...

Am not able to sleep miss nd crave warmth or just talk someone who will say am here dw be it a friend or someone imp

Am a extrovert so I have friends but new city made me realize what am missing alone in this new city taught me importance of having someone special

So here I am with lots of questions no answer no person in this new city

I bet when I find someone i would do everything for them coz ik they will atleast try

Am a extrovert so this being alone is scary I loved in my hometown to go to gathering event not clubbing..but just with friends or just to gyms recreational activity but new city all I do is college/work - home sleep coz I dont have time md when I do i don't have people to go i tried going alone i don't have problem it was fun but somethings are just better with friends..or lets say atleast 2 people

Am someone who enjoys sports workout read music writing poems watching movie exploring cultures going out hosting meeting people but it all stopped when I moved here its not easy it like i lost a big part of me so idk what more to say I might have repeated stuff but yeah thats something going in my mind not able to sleep....

So enjoy ur day guys:)