Target

So I don’t have much of a support system. Really don’t have anywhere to go. I have to start from zero. And in today’s society, starting from zero is extinct. What makes it worse is when everyone knows of you or your name. The stigma that comes with it or even or how society is trying to place this mold or stigma is what is making things complicated.

I recently came to a small town in the Peninsula Olympic. I found this was a place that had free public transportation, a beautiful scenery, and a nature vibe I wanted to experience. Now I told you that I am don’t have much support, and I really don’t have anywhere to go. So I came here homeless; not homeless as in looking to take up space, to be apart of a drug scene or even just wandering. But I believe this history of me bouncing from place to place is making people believe that. I am very smart and intuitive. I eat right and work out sometimes. But I’ve been under some very psychological and emotional pressure. And it’s because of some people.

Placing it on everyone will seem absurd or even ridiculous. But I do believe since it’s a small community, it’s easier to pull off. I’m not saying that I’m in actual danger. But I do feel that people are messing with my mind and it’s not fair. And some people find it funny, and others contribute.

I worked a job and once they found out I lived at the shelter; I instantly lost respect. They said the right things but I can tell that it was something else with the indirect comments made. This town has had a history of assaulting homeless. And I just wanted to get some money work and leave a little stable but I believe I walked into a trap.

As I worked the job, shelter staff asked where I worked, some gossiped with residents about me; and I heard some residents ask how did he get a job so quickly, etc.

While working on the job, like I said; they said a lot of indirect things when I made mistakes. I told my trainer that I went to college, and I was working on something’s, nothing major but just to past time and I can see the look in his face that he didn’t really like to see that. But not because I spoke about it on the job because he was gladly rubbing all of his and his other colleagues accomplishments and dreams in; I believe it’s because people don’t want me like this: strong, motivated, smart, intuitive. I’m not boasting I’m nobody. But I believe these people in this very small town are plotting to either murder or lace me.

I lived at the Oxford house for like a day or two. At the Oxford house, a resident, yes a resident; offered to take me to get weed. In a sober living facility. The guy insisted that I do leave half of my joint in his truck for later. I told him that wouldn’t be smart at all sober facility to just finish it now. He kept trying to convince me to save it and keep it in his truck. Since I’m from out of town, I believe they think I’m not as street smart or intelligent.

Later that day my wallet came up missing and was found later in the guys truck I bought weed with. For some reason it was tucked under the front seat not in the side panel or tucked in the side of the seat. This was directly under the seat; tucked. I would’ve kicked the wallet under there if that was the case and felt it but most importantly the wallet isn’t round so it couldn’t have rolled. I felt this was a bad feeling and left the house. They did everything they could to prevent me from leaving and the worst part about it is one of my roommates was sponsoree to my boss. So they had real good connections.

After i convinced the old man to give me a ride, he had someone along with him. And the guy tried to sit in the front seat and tried to keep me in the middle. These are all signs of someone is plotting. So after I convinced the other guy to leave, the old man act like he didn’t know where to go, he act like he was lost and turning down wrong streets. I kept telling him to make the right turn and I had to keep repeating myself. It’s obvious what was going on.

I believe this is a separate incident but the same motive.

I believe I am a target and it’s really bad because there are real people here who are poisoning this community with drugs, etc. I really need some advice because I’m trying to find somewhere to reset mentally and even get on the right track but I keep landing around pieces of shit. Whether in shelters or working some jobs. I believe people are trying to keep me negative because they’re negative about their situation. I’m trying to optimistic that’s why I keep trying to find a good landing spot but this is too much. I feel they’re indirectly running me off. With indirection.