What healing actually means, according to my old GP

I use the word "healing" a lot. For the longest time it meant the state "normal" people live in: the unabused ones, the ones who never heard of Pete Walker or the body keeps the score. The lucky ones. I wanted to be like them. I felt tainted and damaged. For me healing meant never feeling that agony again, being born anew. A recent conversation with my GP changed that. I was in a bad place and felt stuck. She said she considers me to have successfully integrated my trauma. I was in disbelief. I hadn't showered in a week. She said healing from trauma is a journey. You measure progress by how well you live in alignment with your goals and values, how authentically you lead your life. That's it. I still break down. I live in fog, I cry and grieve. I get depressed and triggered. But I'm allowed to have bad days and not blame myself for feeling bad. Being allowed to feel negative emotions has been such a relief. So can you.

I've also been interested in what else supports integration from a science angle. Came across a webinar on preparation and integration in breakthrough therapies. This Wednesday, one hour. Won't replace therapy but could give me another frame. https://event.statezian.uk/events/statesofmind/2098485