Rejected from a job I thought I nailed – feeling like a total loser right now

Recently interviewed for a full-time role, it was a big panel of 5 ppl it was a conference call on Zoom...

I was well prepared and was able to answer 90% of the questions asked, personally I left satisfied with my performance for the first time in a while... I eventually did critically analyze and overthink it anyways!!

Couldn't sleep thru the weekends thinking about the results, which they said would be coming out by Monday 2nd March...

I just received the call today(Thursday) stating that they moved ahead with a different candidate, I assume they already sent the decision to them on Monday and I only received the call today because I guess they accepted the offer...

~ When I got the call I was already so gone I didn't bother to ask for feedback or what I could have done better! Which I regret cuz I should've done that and I might try calling them tomorrow for the same ~

I had a lot riding on this role, my dreams to relocate be more financially independent, being stress free from the Job search and frickin LinkedIn...

It really hurts!! and it sucks bass!

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I also interviewed for a role this January, my friend already works over there but we never revealed it since his manager was going to interview me for the position, I performed well on the 1st round and started preparing for the 2nd round assuming I'm already inn to the next round because I did well, 2 weeks later they ghost me... And I had heard that the other candidate went into the 2nd round and I assumed she got the Job and I gave upp, had 3 weeks of severe depressing and self-doubt...

A week later the manager(that interviewed me) had a casual talk with my friend, telling him how much he liked both the candidates (me and this girl that went into the 2nd round) and he revealed he was planning to hire both of us but he couldn't because of the Budget cut!!!

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Some people(I personally know) interviewed at a place and there were some key skills they didn't have and the interviewer just asked them if they were willing to learn these skills?? They said "Yes" and they got Hired!

Great for them, but I've been jumping thru soo many hoops! and have tried my best to convey to recruiters about how determined and willing I'm to learn new skills but they never gave me a chance?!! And at the same time have interviewed for roles where I covered all the skills was a perfect match, I didn't get it...

I know a lot of people like me are struggling, but I don't get how the other half gets a red-carpet and the rest of us have to begg and keep fighting! its not even fair!!

WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO MEE!???

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I'm having such a bad luck in life so far, I just want to let god know I'm not his strongest soldier...

I think I had sleep apnea induced from all my anxiety/stress and kept waking up gasping for air the whole week...

I'm open to inputs and would love to hear from my fellow friends and critics on this Sub, btw I'm new here if I'm wrong let me know..

Good Night,