I’m unsure whether to quit.

I’ve been trading for around 3 years (6 month break is included) and I keep returning back to trading no matter what happens. I want this to work out so badly.

I started with forex for 1.5 years and then swapped to future for better price action.

The issue I run into is my psychology. I have passed 8 evals and got into funded but never gotten a payout. Closest I made it was day 4/5 of $150 a day and I ended up blowing the account. After that I pass evals and just blow them.

I want to know if anyone has had a similar issue? Psychology is a huge part of trading, I know it is. But u never figured it would be quite this hard. I hit the gym everyday, I have a decent aesthetic, I can control my eating and I got rid of my bad habits when it comes to life in general.

When it comes to the charts, it’s like I’m a child. Can’t sit still. Waiting for a trade and if that trade doesn’t come I force something and only acknowledge that I forced it a couple hours afterwards.

Please help me, should I move on and look for something else? Or continue on and hope my psychology goes better?