Physical touch

Being single for a while and I do have a desire for physical closeness, things like hugging, kissing, cuddling, and of course sex. So I downloaded a dating app and thought give short term relationships a go(not ready for a serious relationship) I told myself not to put too much pressure on it and just keep it light.

But I realised I couldn’t really do it. When someone makes a very direct move toward intimacy, my instinctive reaction is actually resistance. Even when I’ve met someone once or twice who is tall, handsome, fit, and seems like a good person, if there isn’t a thing, I just can’t naturally move into physical touch. My body becomes stiff, and my mind just starts to check out of the moment 😔😔😔