Rant about happenings ig

So Im freshly 18, I've had a pretty bad flu/cold for the past 5ish days, and because of this I'd stopped eating dinner; I'd just fall asleep before dinner was made. The first couple times, my family had left dinner out for me; as I am a night owl and sometimes wake up at witch o clock to eat, without my knowledge and the food had to be thrown out.

Day before yesterday they told me, but I was so sick i didnt end up getting up to put the food away. 3 entire meals went to waste because of me and i feel like shit and I also started my period today and they've just stopped making dinner for me and idk i just cried abt it for a while.

Im acc so hungry tonight but i dont wanna ask for food bcs of whats happened??? i kinda also think im just overthinking it and should just like get the courage and ask for it but idk i jst feel like an aweful person ig i hate that my emotions get amplified so much when Im on my period idk, could I get some advice on what to do? I think important context is I am lucky enough to live in abundance, but my parents were not and idk my brain is saying they hate me coz i wasted so much food