Rawdogging - The Sequel

A follow up “not-poem” documenting being unmedicated

1. I think it’s going well

2. I got a new car recently I opened her up today on the backroads. It was beautiful out and I was chasing dopamine with the windows down

3. This was the only time I was uphill at all today

4. I decided I spend too much time on my phone and need to read more.

5. Spent the last three nights on my laptop instead.

6. Does it count that I have books IN bed with me?

7. I think it does

8. Made it a point to bring a book outside with me today while tanning.

9. And now we’re downhill

10. I fell asleep within two minutes.

11. My tan looks really great from the back

12. I blame my front on the book

13. I remembered to pick up children today!

14. I was late

15. I forgot to eat

16. Then had two bags of chips an ice cream bar and decided to finish with something healthy fresh cut apple

17. Remember the hill?

18. I freaked out over not being able to find the honey

19. It was in the fridge and I had a meltdown

20. In my defense who tf puts honey in the fridge

21. Sadists put honey in the fridge

22. I’ve discovered I’d rather die a slow painful death of botulism from room temperature honey than chew on taffy

23. Then I tossed the honey on the counter and it broke

24. Did I say the hill was steep?

25. Number 23 was a lie

26. I launched the honey into the wall above the counter

27. The lid broke

28. The bottle slid across the counter into my plate of freshly cut apple

29. Which ended up on the floor

30. Not right side up

31. The kids laughed

32. I cried

33. I hid in one of the bedrooms later to play surprise hide and seek …a sort of “sorry mommy lost her shit earlier” last ditch effort

34. They yelled at me

35. I poured out hair oil on top of their Stanley to prove a point

36. To which the mini version of myself screamed out “You need to get back on medication”

37. The hill is a ravine

38. It’s not going well

-M. Ocasio

39. I remembered the numbering this time