I exchanged nudes with my married coworker

(I deleted my previous post so I’m going to post it again here to clarify things)

I’m 19 and I work in a place where most people are 20+. In my team there’s a coworker who’s 32. We’ve talked on Insta and he said we should hang out sometime as friends. I asked him about being married, and he said he actually just lives with his wife because of their son.

But once I saw, by accident, that her contact name on his phone was saved as “Amanda ❤️”. That already made me suspicious.

About five months ago he used to message me all the time. I thought he was hitting on me and I cut it off, but he said he’s just like that with everyone. One day I needed help after work and he would’ve had to give me a ride. I mentioned it to a coworker and she started saying he was married and that it wasn’t appropriate for me to ask him for help. After that she acted weird towards me, and I felt bad, like she was calling me easy, especially since he’s 32 and I’m 19

In another conversation he said he knows he has a reputation for cheating, that he doesn’t owe anyone explanations, and that if someone asked him if he was cheating he would say yes just to “watch the circus burn.” I asked why he doesn’t wear a ring and he repeated that he’s “separated” but still living in the same house because of the kids. He also said that just because someone gets in his car doesn’t mean something will happen, because he’s not a magician.

One day I asked him for a Halls candy to break the awkward tension, and he joked, “this is the candy I use when I’m going to cheat on my wife.” The vibe got really heavy after that.

And to make it worse, I ended up exchanging nudes with him. I really want to be with him, like go all the way… but at the same time it feels very wrong. And I still don’t know if he actually has feelings for me or if he’s just feeding into it because I showed interest.

The next day he even said he couldn’t stand being in the same place as me because he would get hard, and that’s why he would disappear sometimes. I didn’t even know how to react.

**The real update**

He’s an immigrant, and he said that’s why he can’t divorce his wife yet, because he wouldn’t be able to get a visa without her help and he wants to stay close to his son.

that same day I asked him for a ride to my dad’s house because my dad had traveled and asked me to take care of his cats. He drove me there, and when we arrived I asked if he could come inside and help me. We took care of the cats together.

After that, I went upstairs to check my old room to see if I needed anything, since I no longer live there. I didn’t realize he had followed me upstairs. He tried to kiss me there, I got so nervous and went downstairs again lol.

When we returned to the car, he was close to me and we started kissing. Things became more physical and sexual from there. He asked me to suck his dick and i told him it was my first time giving a blowjob, he said I could try if I wanted to. I ended up doing it and he eventually finished in my mouth.

It’s been 6 days since that happened and things between us have been getting awkward