[F26] Attracted to older men

I'm an Asian American who grew up in the Midwest and I moved to NYC about a year and half ago for work in finance. My type in college has been Asian men and I've been in a relationship with my BF for about 5 years since undergrad. However over the last year my type has changed. I'm so much more into men who are much older, maybe late 40s early 50s and usually white. I hate to admit it and know it's wrong but I constantly think about such men (few from my work). They seem so assured, confident and show a sense of power which I am automatically drawn to. I know it's 2026 and I shouldn't feel that way. Any banter or flirting that happens post work at happy hours is something I look forward to these days. BF and I are in LDR and the lack of physical contact likely adds to it. I'm aware of the Asian fetish, yellow fever among white men and though I feel ashamed as I write this now these are the men who occupy my mind at nights.