Kahit gaano ka pala katatag, bibigay ka rin

I've been dealing with so much lately. Ever since I resigned a year ago, I feel like I've lost my purpose in life. Honestly, the thought of ending it all crosses my mind, but every time I look at my mom, it hurts to think that she wouldn't be able to take it. I don't understand myself anymore, I don't know where I’m headed or if I even have a future. I often feel like I won’t be in this world for long. Ako lang ba? Ako lang ba ang nakakaramdam ng ganitong pressure at lito sa lahat?