Just had sex and it hurt

Throw away for reasons.

Im writing from a place of extreme vulnerability, please be kind.

We just finished the deed. Im sitting in the bathroom with tears, hiding it quite well. It started like normal he asks, I agree but still make it fun, he finishes. Occasionally, he steps up his game and it's a nice moment for both of us. Sometimes it can feel like it's only about his gaze and his pleasure. I have told him this when it comes up, he makes efforts but it still centers around his enjoyment in the end. This time was uncomfortable, I was hurting, honestly dont know what that's about. I mentioned it but he continued. By that point all want to engage was lost and I felt like a piece of meat.

Cue the light tears at the end.

The last time my voice wasn't heard was in our younger years. The time when some are typically still emotionally immature despite their age. Added with, albeit wrong, ideals of what moments like these should be.

For context

My spouse and I have been with each other over 2 decades. We have had a lot of growth. He is not what this paints him to be, a single crack does not show you the foundation of a home. We have been to therapy, couples & individual, and ironed out those wrinkles. We have a very happy marriage and love our life together.

I know if I tell him he will be accepting and work towards a resolution. I just want him to engage more. He has shown he IS capable a few times. Could be our current cluster of life events for the past year....it has been the worst year of our life. Moments like these can either help or hinder feelings.