Describing Conditions that I am Diagnosed with

um for context im diagnosed with the following conditions:

- Bipolar 1 Disorder with psychotic features

- Major depressive disorder

- social anxiety

- post traumatic stress disorder

- obsessive compulsive disorder

- schizoaffective disorder

- history of repeated overdose

- self inflicted injuries/self harm behaviors

- history of anorexia/bulimia nervosa

- borderline personality disorder

- optic nerve hypoplasia of left eye

- mental impairment

- adjustment disorder with disturbance of conduct

- asthma

All together being diagnosed with these conditions I’d describe it like when ur eating trail mix and ur trying to get ur favorite snack out of the mix but everytime u reach into the bag u get something you werent trying to reach for let alone even knew it was in the mix but its in ur hand now and u cant put it back so u eat it and it was a bitter raisin that just fell in the snack mix but this trail mix was gifted to you by someone supposedly licensed in making trail mix and they’re sitting across from you periodically glancing your way watching ur reactions but u dont want to make them feel like their studies were for nothing so you cant just spit anything out and u eat the bitter shriveled up raisin. not only 1 time too. u proceed to reach for ur favorite snack and u get 10+ more bitter raisins though u thought the first raisin u ate was the only bad raisin that could possibly be in this trail mix because of how stomach turning it was. there u are, eating the 10th or who knows how many bad raisins you ate at this point. at your 12th attempt to finally be able to pick ur favorite snack, you reach in and you realize the trail mix was in a clear resealable bag, why didn’t you just look in the bag to know what snack ur picking? you realize weren’t eating trail mix at all looking at the snack through the clear bag that this so and so trail mix professional put together to gift to you personally, it ended up being just a full bag of bad raisins that were put in that bag specifically picked out to be put on the side to Not be apart of the trail mix because they’re expired raisins. u are upset. you think to yourself this is outrageous and as ur about to lash out on the trail mix professional, the same one you were even enduring the bitter raisins for in hopes of protecting their thoughts and feelings, you pause like how can this professional possibly mix up the 2 snack bags when they gave this to u? did they not make a mistake and intentionally gave u bad raisins? if it was actually a genuine mistake u are still so angry this “pro” didn’t even intervene or stop you to tell you that’s the wrong snack bag. then it falls back to, wait maybe they didn’t stop me or say anything because i technically still presented myself to react politely indicating no dislike or negative reaction of the bad raisins??? if someone is eating something expired and visually they’re not displeased while also still continuing to eat more, u start thinking if u would even stop them yourself if you were watching all of that unfold? um at that moment u are just still mad because wtf just happened? u are back to being on the verge of lashing out to this professional. the yell you’re about to let out, you are not even personally sure of how loud it’ll be given the anger u gained through this all that’s burning u from the inside. u almost yell. you stop urself. not because u have self control or ability to forgive and consider someone who upset you. no it’s because ur schizophrenic and that trail mix professional was not even there, u don’t even know what ur favorite snack was that u were trying to pick with so much effort, that bad bag of raisins was probably some illicit substance that u weren’t even aware u were doing (or who f*cking knows what if u just ate a bag of rabbit sh*t)fake hypothetical story typed up to describe what conditions i have? it all makes sense. im mentally impaired but if im not wrong im pretty sure that’s just the more current medical term classifying me as the R word AND I HAVE ASTHMA????