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(???🌀🌀🌀QUESTIONNN 1)I wanted to ask, have thinken you are a little nuts…and if you work with Santa Muerte has she help you pull out this state when you don’t feel connection to the world you once used to feel,or more aware of whats real and whats js nonsensee,ykwim.…(im not diagnosed but of course im self aware imm not the norm)ss

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(BASICALLY JS A RANT IDK)

I never worked with santa muerte but i wanted to for a while n was thinking of buying a statue, and i have a necklace i wear everyday of her.

Starting in 4th grade of elementary…i started thinking i was spirtual in a way, but i knew i ws js a bit delusional, then it started getting worse (truly being a believer i was a special being)and i was catholic but wanting to be christian, but i was scared of god and again doubted it.bein mexican and seeing the Santa muerte imagery i thought about devoting frequently..and she didn’t really confuse me , it made me feel kinda safe hearing about her….

(WHAT I THOUGHT WS A SIGN FROM HER):):):):):):):)🧠🧠🧠🧠

Today while walking, i saw a dead owl.

My vision immediately flashed black and i think it was in my head maybe i saw la santa muerte . I think its all just in my head … and i felt a sense of eerie and i started thinking about devoting but i felt scared to think of my mom again .im thinking its just the noise in my head again….

I question my beliefs in her because i never know whats fr like i said(i thought i was shizotypal and some other paranoia type mental issues something like that), but shes the one that when i think consciously and try to avoid those overwhelming thoughts that destruct my reality i feel is right. And that she can help me, and protect me from the bad luck i get in the world.(i get predated on a lot and have went through some stuff),I also dont really know why i wouldnt believe, other then me not experiencing anything… I was also into witchcraft as a kid and ongoing…never did it tho (are you really not supposed to associate santa muerte with witchraft??)

??????(🌀🌀QUESTIONNN 2,3,4,5)And also… if i do start working with her, do i actually need to learn a lot about her, can’t i just start talking to her and giving her her space and wants.?

May i keep her and lady of guadalupe in the same room, a little close by.. i think my mom would trip ..i already wear a chain with guadalupe and her but i feel nothing…..

Is it okay if my beliefs would be up and down in my head but i pushed the non believing ones okay and still devoted.

Again kinda same question as earlier but …is folk catholism and witchcraft surrounding that actually wrong..