I (36M) keep showing myself on cam

I'm a 36M, and each time I spend time alone, I end up showing myself on cam. I've been doing that for maybe 15 years now. At first it was just some pics to whoever was asking or was interested in seing kinky pics of me. Then I discovered random cam to cam websit s.... It was amazing to be able to show myself masturbating to strangers, but I was always trying not to show to anyone who wouldn't want to see 😅. I felt kind of ashamed but it was so arousing. Later I discovered Reddit and different communities where I could post and offer to show of my cock, people directly contacting me for that is always amazing. I even started to do cocktribs. And this is where I got lucky, I met few women (I'm primarily into women) who were into watching me on cam, one on one, or just talking to me, or showing themselves watching 🥵 or even playing with themselves 😍. I even had regular "cam dates" with a couple of women. Every now and then I try to stop, feeling ashamed and guilty. But I still coming to it. These days I do it on a new random cam to cam website specifically for NSFW almost every day. I should stop, but I don't know if I can. Those are my best "solo" orgasm.