I'm scared that my insecurities are impacting how i perceive my friends

So, lately i have been trying to work through a lot of my insecurities, im nowhere near close to fixing them, but at least i've been able to describe them to myself, which is big progress for me.But sadly while i kind of improved how i feel about myself, I've also become hyper aware of everything that my friends are that im not(being conventionally attractive, always productive,confident, approachable,and just in general themselves) and im scared that it's affecting how i see them.

And i know that no ones life is perfect, and that they have problems of their own, but even on that side i somehow feel "inferior", like they have actual problems and trauma, and are still able to keep in touch regularly, be available and always listen to me if i vent (but never vent back,only drop hints that they're unwell) while to me aswering a text is sometimes exhausting and i'm very bad at helping people with their problems.(i never know what to say so it becomes akward pretty quickly)

i guess i just often feel like the lesser friend and person in general when im with them, and its really affecting my confidence but also how i see them,because i feel like im putting them in a fake pedestal that not only fucks me up mentally, but also makes my expectations for them really high.

i really need help to figure this out, i just don't want my own insecurities to affect how i act and feel around my friends, because i love them to death, they're honestly some of the best people ever, and i dont want me to see them just as people to compare myself to rather than just be friends with