Handsome

I miss you handsome. I know we were never really together. Not by my choice, you never saw me as someone you wanted to be with. I sat in the back, never wanting to apply pressure. That's not how i wanted you, anyway. I wanted you the natural way for you to come to me just because you couldnt stay away. Two people that just happened to stumble into each other enjoying each others company, having fun, being silly, discovering each other being there for each other through good and bad. Most importantly, trusting each other in knowing we had each others back. You showed me so many special things about you when we were together face to face. I treasure that. You knew i loved you and part of you hated me for that. You would always say that nobody ever stays. Its not that people leave you, you push people away. You pushed me so hard, i finally fell and got hurt. It took me a long time to get up. I did get up and I learned a lot. Some really hard truths about myself that ive had to work through. I did the work and i know, i'll never go back to the person I was before. That person is gone, i am strong and I deserve better than being a side piece. You like to juggle and cause chaos. I don't. I love you and i'm grateful for the time i got to spend with you. I still think of you, and I know i can move on without you. I w8sh you the best. Love K💋