Constantly feeling like an A-hole because everyone seems completely nonsensical and illogical

I am probably the most confident I’ve been in my life, although comparatively to others, I still have a ways to go… but…

I genuinely am starting to worry that I’m an egotistical POS because no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to form any attraction to people. There are some physically attractive people out there, so much variety which I fondly appreciate. It’s peoples personalities. I find them repulsive.

No matter how old or young they are, I’m either infantilised or parentified or just straight up horrified by their nonsensical careless behaviour. And then there are some lovely kind people who I just can’t really discuss my interests with. I don’t think all these people worthless, It’s like a great variety of ways and combinations of incompatibility.

Some people are smart but I don’t find their sense of humour or attitude attractive. some people are hot but absolute meatheads. I feel like this alien, it’s like people have some aspects of what I’m looking for but not all.

I don’t think I’m THAT smart that I’m intellectually mogging 99% of the population. Like I still have so much to learn, to work on, I still have so much to catch up on and some days my cognitive function is better than others.

Is it just a ASD related social disconnect? Everyone seems to lack emotional, social and general intelligence. Some people lack one, others lack all. And that’s not taking into consideration physical attraction.

The one person who understands me is in a different country, and I know I can’t have them the way I want to, I know I don’t know them truely other than through my phone screen. I don’t even care what they look like, it wouldn’t matter anyways.

I want to be touched. But I just can’t justify the risks of casual sex. Have I spent so long perfecting myself to offset my feelings of worthlessness as a result of social isolation and alienation that my standards are now too high?

Because honestly… it does genuinely feel like I’m surrounded by idiots when it comes to romantic interests. In terms of platonic relationships I’m not struggling to the same degree. The more I put myself out there the more I’m like ew… wtf is wrong with people.

It’s a lack of common sense, emotional intelligence mostly. Not all these people are bad, that’s why I’m honestly saddened by my lack of want for them. Can anyone relate, offer any advice?