It's not worth it

Currently on day 6 of my latest attempt to quit. Weirdly enough, many of the more agonizing physical symptoms that I've experienced in the past have yet to rear their head.

The thing that has been persistent and difficult to shake is the cravings. They've been incredibly intense despite the fact that I've really really been enjoying being sober, clear-minded, and present with my family this past week.

I had a good, productive day today, but for some reason I simply could not get rid of the voice in the back of my head saying, "wouldn't this be even better with a little you-know-what?"

I knew I would regret it if I caved, and my personal history tells me it probably wouldn't stop at just a weekend binge.

I was *this* freaking close to failing. Had my cart picked out on the dispensary website and very nearly placed the order. Miraculously, I conjured the self-control to close out the tab and leave the house for a bit to clear my head.

A few hours later, I feel nothing but sweet relief that I didn't cave. I'm not sure if this will be helpful for anyone, I just wanted to get it off my chest.

IT'S NOT WORTH IT

Onto day 7...