atomised

im so tired, I live in a world full of self absorbed people, nobody cares about anything, nobody feels anything, nobody notices anything I wanted to make the world better, I wanted to shine beams of love to everybody around me but all I find is despise, hate and sometimes what's worse: absentness, blankness I feel like I'm always here to the people that I love, but my so is not here for me, he is here in many ways but not in the ways that matter and I now it's not a "him" problem, I know I can find other person and it will just be the same, it will always be the same. people are so full of themselves that there is no space to anybody else, everyone is atomised.