kinda dooming idk

> realizes I’m trans at like 13

> comes out, rejected at 14

> cope for years, develops increasing neurosis

> start HRT and girl moding at 19

> am financially and mentally unstable and on drugs from 19 to 25 so I never went more than a few months at a time on mones during that time

> restart more seriously at 26

> am 28 now, life feels OVER for me and my capacities have barely improved I’m only somewhat stabilized because of Effexor/Abilify

> tbh don’t know how I’ve survived this long and what my tranny future holds but it feels bleak for me. I feel like such a retarded faggot for not saving money and taking life seriously during those years instead I was just high and bricky. but I was also dealing with a plethora of diagnoses some of them are just better managed now. whatever at least I can blame my parents for the rest of my life for not letting me transition as a teenager 🤠

sorry there’s no real point to this I just feel my mental health declining again and I’m venting 💔