Why do I always need a man?

To start this off, I’m fairly new to this sub and I claim to be a feminist who support everyone regardless of their gender identity or sex assigned at birth. I truly see no difference between men and women and strive for a gender neutral future.

I also believe that men have no advantage when it comes to academic studies such as studying on university, as I am right now. But rather, I believe most women are smarter than the average man, according to various studies.

I’m a math and computer engineering major and in my class, there’s always other students who can help me when I struggle.

However, I often find myself so clueless in so many situations where I don’t know what to do or how to solve/complete a task, and whenever I need help(which is very often), a man always comes and helps me.

It makes me wonder two things.

1: Why am i so terrible at being self dependent and doing my own tasks and stuff? Am I the stupid one? Ive always thought of myself as intelligent until university.

2: Why is it always men who help me? Why have I never seen a woman act as the helper? Why are all the other women in my class struggling just like me? Men just seem to get things so easy while i’m stuck on the most basic question.

And it’s not just academic things, but rather any situation where I am expected to do something, I always feel so useless. While men around me just swoop in and ask ”Want me to help you, darling?” Like it’s an easy task that they have no problems doing at all?!

Physical labour, Stamina, Theorizing, etc. All of these, men just seem to get.

It always feels like men just get it while i’m stuck behind, not understanding anything and always being dependant on men, and I don’t get it >:(

Please feel free to let me know what you all think, and as always, my dm’s are open🩷