idk if I should reach out to my friend after texting her crazy things during psychotic episode

Last year I had a crazy psychotic episode and I messaged my friend really crazy things that I regret a lot. They were not mean or anything just really serious. My mind is telling me she probably told people and I don’t want any of that information to be out there. But I have no proof of her telling people like ughhh idk I’m so dumb. I want to reach out so bad because she was such a good friend to me but the cringe of what crazy things I was texting her during my psychosis haunts me and keeps me up at night. I had my phone taken off me and recently got it back.