I don’t know how to act with what happened

Idk why but like randomly a month or so ago I started bottling up my feelings like really badly to the point where I’d have a weekly break down at school from what was going on at home, this past 2 weeks have been online school since it’s dangerous outside (constant alarms and missile sightings and places near us being bombed) a week ago I crashed out on my Dad since he kept saying that the hand sanitizer spray I used (1 spray, literally ONE SPRAY) he could smell it and he hates it, the day after I made a scene where I called him a liar and yelled at him and he’s still mad at me, today I was just trying to put my sheet on the couch (I sleep in the living room, unrelated reasons) and I told him to get up, I wouldn’t normally talk to him like that but I didn’t think he deserved being talked to, when I told him to get up he said “what, you asshole) and he kept calling me that and many other things and when I referred to him as “someone” he got angry and said “I’m not someone in your dad, you should treat me with respect and call me dad” and he kept making a big tantrum,after he got up I closed the tv bcs my 4 year old brother’s eyes were red and my mom had mentioned that earlier so when I did my dad came and opened the tv again and kept telling my brother “she’s not worthy to get mad at” and so I told my mother and basically im not even exaggerating my mom has said multiple times she hates talking with me because of my attitude “my older brother is “perfect” and my older sister is too much of a chicken and cries at the smallest thing) and I always make good points, literally everybody hates me, I do not know what to do, a lot of times when I get like this I usually bottle it all up and just wait for something, a small little thing at school to make me slightly angry and then I cry for like 30 minutes or something but now there’s no school and idk what to do, I don’t wanna cry bcs I don’t wanna show them I’m weak, I feel like I either wanna bottle my feelings up until school starts, or hurt myself or just do nothing but I don’t know anything at this point, and also my dad blames everything on “those westerners” I watch on my phone…??????? Can’t you accept this is my actual personality and not blame it on someone else