Love with u

I was in love with you, but I could never say it. It was never meant to be. No one wanted me to tell you and many actively interfered. I'm sorry that I held on too tight, hoping you’d see me, you never did. I bled from clinging to something that wasn’t real, and now, I can’t let go.

Maybe I don’t love you anymore, but I don’t hate you either. I just wanted to let go, even if it means breaking my own promises.

Of course I'm lying to myself those gh, it was and is always me who loved you, even if from afar. When we got older, I was afraid if I told you, I would ruin your life or up turn everyone's or even just of the rejection again. I'm sorry for keeping secrets, for reaching out and I'm glad this is unsent, I also know you won't believe this. Keep smiling beautiful and maybe one day I will see you and say hi but i do afraid to do so.

Love. It gets so hard, sometimes.