Does therapy help

Haven’t gone to therapy bcs it’s pricey and I’m thinking if i should get piercings and continue thugging it out instead. Past years I’ve been feeling sad. But suddenly this year i don’t feel much, in a sense where Ive wired my brain to have only two emotions, happy n nothing. Everytime i shed a tear it stops pretty quickly. My room is a mess and i don’t shower daily. Maybe im just lazy. I forget things so easily it’s insane. Im so stressed about money that sometimes i do SB. Is this a sign to go or am i just tripping.