Im so jealous and sad

Idk why but i became sadder when I found out that on Tuesday, we're gonna be doing like year pictures, like the entire year and the teachers together in a pic bcs its the last year (+ single pictures). I dnt wanna do it for multiple reasons and ill probably js skip it somehow, but it js makes me so sad and jealous aswell (im already insanely jealous of everything) that everyone else has friends and good relationships with teachers and will be happy to and able to take those stupid pics. And im js gonna be alone crying somewhere like I always do.

I literally cried all day today, and im pretty sure my teacher saw me but obviously js pretended I didn't exist. I was literally sitting at the front, in front of her and struggling to breath. Im so sick of this.

I wish I could js kms without going to hell if it works or without any like bad side effects if it dsnt.

I hate myself. So much.