2 years on FF- 4 months clean

has anyone taken these or been on the Kratom train for longer than a year ? I see a lot of different people here but not a lot of several years progressive users. I started with capsules of Kratom powder. 2 a day, that was it. I felt amazing and it helped me get through my work day in a busy & high stress urgent care vet clinic. it progressed to more capsules, then a friend and boyfriend introduced me to Kratom extract.

I would get one every day for years. It progressed to 2 a day and then more, then looking for even stronger forms. Eventually I tried 7-OH and pseudoindoxyl but decided to just switch to feel frees & would take a 7 OH tablet once in a while (because the smoke shop was giving me samples for free!!!) I ended up taking feel frees for 2 years. Up to 6 a day. I thought they were less “bad” at the time 🙄

but overall, my kratom journey has spanned 5 years. It cost me thousands upon thousands of dollars. It wrecked my brain and relationships. The only people who I talked to with regularity worked at the smoke shop, which I am ashamed to admit. my drinking increased because when the kratom buzz wore off and I couldn’t afford to get more I would drink. my entire life revolved around whatever I could do to feel good, nothing in my life ever felt like enough anymore. Prior to this I never tried any drugs beyond smoking weed, I didn’t even like opiates when I was prescribed them.

4 months clean now. Take a little powder to sleep still (trying to taper) still experiencing PAWs symptoms but I feel like myself for the first time in years.

Keep going ❤️‍🩹 one more minute, one more hour, one more day. It will be worth it in the end. this stuff took my entire life away.