Venting bc i hate comp already

I've been trying to play comp, i only played QP but i give up, i haven't even been able to know which rank i'll play once the test matches reach the 10/10 because while i play knowing shit, my team is begging me to start at DAMN BRONZE AND I WANT TO JUMP OF A CLIFF AAAAAAAAAA

Tell me, WHY IN THE HELL WHEN I'M HEALING THE TANKS AMD DPS'S DECIDE

"NO, we will get back"

INSTEAD OF GOING IN AAAAAAAA-

i'm probably not even going to try it anymore bc why. Why?

"I'm just venting for the sake of it, no one will help bc its the game and probably i suck"

I would say that if weren't the fact i have already enough hours to know how the game works by tutorials + guides + playing EACH ROLE FOR DAYS on a week xd.

Why this happens to me? I can heal you damnit, let me HEAL YOU INSTEAD OF GOING BACK.

I'm being dramatic ik, please humor me and let me be,