I need advice

This is a long story but I’m going to simplify it the best I can 😂

-admin hires me to teach 2 years ago (4th grade)

- from the beginning says I have bad classroom management

- ok.. I try to fix it

-end of year: says it’s getting better but still not great.

-2nd year at the school now, (2nd grade)

-year was going great, until mid year conference

-they then tell me classroom management is horrible (it had actually gotten so much better) additionally tell me that my classroom is dirty, I send kids to the nurse too much, oh and that my board outside my room needs changing and it looks unprofessional because of 1 missing letter. Data looks good but not good enough.

-I’m crushed. I thought things were better.. after the meeting I immediately missed 2 days of work due to mental health. Tried to bring myself back up. It really took a toll on me. Honestly didn’t want to be there anymore after that.

-2 weeks later, another observation, great feedback due to me beginning to get extremely strict (what they want)

-I applied for a high school position, told admin I had an interview today. (They already knew)

-they respond with telling me that I can’t take constructive criticism and they feel like I have a “chip on my shoulder.” Continued with telling me that my name is not on the renewal list currently because of how I respond to feedback. (No I wasn’t happy about it but I did try to fix it) and That I will have to show them I can take feedback with a positive attitude or they will not renew me.

-I am currently PRAYING that I get this high school job to get out of this toxic school. If not, I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I’m not going to kiss admin’s ass anymore. I’m done!

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