I relate to Aiko a lot.

This is a really difficult topic for me, but I want to talk abt it. I dont understand why people say that you can't relate to Aiko's persona. I relate to her a lot and I feel extremely guilty for it and I know I'm not a good person, but I grew quite affectionate to her character. I suffer from MDD, anxious attachment, I constantly have suicidal thoughts (I attempted multiple times) and I self harm a lot. I have a boyfriend who is way more mentally stable than me (or at least he says so). He tries so hard with me, but I genuinely feel like I am such a weight in his life, still I am terrified at the idea of him leaving me because I love him with all my heart and I truly feel like he's the only one who understands me.

It it really that hard for a person to relate to her character? She perfectly represents "the ugliness" that not so few people feel inside.