19 years, no friends, no girlfriend

My parents divorced when I was 10, by the time I started being bullied at school. I became very obese, and grew more lonely as the others further isolated me. I changed schools, but I couldn't make friends anywhere I went to. I would always fuck thinks up and be a bad person to others. From age 13 to 17. In total, I have probably studied in more than 10 schools.

Now I'm an adult. I don't have any social skills. I don't know how to talk to others. I get too nervous for that. I lost the weight, I theoretically should not have any debuffs when it comes to appearance. Yet, I can never integrate with the people I see daily at college. I guess I'm what they call a "mental FA".

I'm the social outcast without anyone isolating me; I was the one who isolated myself.

There's a girl who's also alone. She has bad jaw and bad teeth, to the point that she wears a face mask to hide it. Me and her are always early to the classes, while most of our classmates arrive in groups, and in time. I pondered over going to talk to her and see if I can befriend her, but I'm too shy for that...

I probably had a lot of potential to be an amazing person in life. Someone the me from now would look up to. Yeah, if only my parents had me playing soccer from an young age and weren't egotistical enough to divorce, I would probably have a normal life, with good grades at school, and without failing the entrance exam for the course that I actually wanted to get into. I would also have kissed by the time I was 15, probably.

I should stand on a chair, then kick it while being held in suspension.