Daily guilt is real in pregnancy. Wow.

I know I should be generous to myself but It’s gotten normal for me to have some sort of guilt and regret everyday.

Just ate a whole pint of ice cream from Baskin Robbins and feel so grossed at myself crying and being so bloated.

Been watching lots of criminal stories and scary movies just as usual before pregnancy, but somehow feel guilty now because my parents told me that watching these will impact my baby’s brain and shock them.

Bought a bunch of maternity clothes online thinking they will be cute. They make me look like I am 10-20 years older than I actually am. Returned like 5 boxes at Whole Foods over the weekend.

Tried to do some exercise because I have been too lazy and somehow hurt my shoulder. Sleeping feels painful and I feel so tired. Why did I decide to do something new?

I know I need to be generous to myself and learn to be patient and calm because once baby gets here, those are the strengths I need. But often I end up sitting in regrets and guilt from simple little things. I am gonna get myself together but it’s just how I feel at the moment. Hopefully it gets better.