Conflicted about my body goals

From all I know the 2 most desirable body shapes of women are either skinny everything or thick with big boobs and butt and curves.

Every cis woman I see has one of these shapes or at least very close to one. I have no idea what to do now.

Going for the skinny one would be impossible due to my broad shoulders, being on hrt which constantly adds weight to my boobs and the fact im really bad with diets.

Going for thick would be much more realistic for me but I really doubt it would be possible without some surgeries. Im 21 months on hrt and i think im B cup size? Which looks really small on me cause of my body size. I doubt it would get to D cup without BA and I dont think I want to do more surgeries after ffs and srs. Idk any surgeries for hips or shoulders and it scares me to ever think about it

What should I do? I feel like an imposter almost around other women like you got this girl who looks really feminine(hair, face, fashion wise i mean) but is built like a guy and this thought is killing me 😭.