I (15M) wanted to be held and touched and still do, so I let people use me for my body

I (15M) wanted to be held and touched and still do, so I let people use me for my body

I am very touch starved and don't really have any friends because my mental health destroys most of my relationships. I haven't had any physical contact or intimacy in a while and I really wanted someone to hold me and touch me in any way shape or form even if they are just using me for my body. I wanted to be held or touched or anything so bad I found a 17 year old online, we talked for a few days, and I went to his house just so we could hookup because I wanted to feel someone else's warmth (or just warmth in general bc I'm an anorexic and fucking cold 24/7). It's the same reason I have started to many FWB situations. They get sex and I get physical contact even if I can never actually climax. TLDR: I want to be touched and held, so I let a random guy from the internet have sex with me so I could be held