feeling sexually frustrated after separating from gf (vent (╥_╥))

i've been separated from my ex gf for about two months now. she ended things because she was going through a lot in her personal life, but we agreed to try things again when her circumstances began to improve.

recently, we've begun sort of courting each other and flirting again. we agreed to take things slow and let things develop naturally bc we felt we jumped into our relationship too quickly.

however... i have never felt more sexually frustrated than the last month and a half

she was my first girlfriend (after years of dumb situationships) and i was her first. we revealed to each other early on that we're both into kink, and quickly established a subby butch dog x dom femme owner dynamic. we discovered more about our own kinks together through Much, Much experimentation, and now since separating i feel like i've gone crazy.

i've been humping my pillows and covers even as soon as i wake up in the morning. i grind in my desk chair while sending emails, and touch myself while cooking myself dinner. i feel like i'm losing my mind because this stuff has only started happening since my ex and i separated. i don't necessarily think of my ex while doing these things (i don't really think of any one at all), but i just feel like i'm in heat and idk what to do (╥_╥)

i'm such a needy pervert that can't help having a wet, throbbing clit at random points throughout the day. i miss waiting for my owner to come home from work after touching myself all day and being made to kiss their shoes and sniff their sweaty pussy after a long shift. i miss being slapped for making a mess of myself then immediately praised for being such a good girl and waiting so patiently for my owner to come home. i want to be fucked silly with all of my femme's weight on top of me. i could seriously go on all day about these things that have been on my mind.

i have no one to talk to about this and idk how to let this frustration out bc no amount of jacking off is fixing anything FUCK

i can't tell if this is yearning or just some hormonal thing or whatever else...