AITAH for ghosting a girl after some really wild hookups and now I feel like a complete asshole. Is there any coming back from this?

New here, as you can probably tell.

I’ve been going back and forth with myself for a few months about this and I’m not sure what to do. I met this girl and we ended up hooking up a few times, and eventually I ghosted her.

Here’s the part that’s been bothering me.

This wasn’t just normal casual sex. It was honestly some of the wildest, roughest sex I’ve ever had. We basically did everything you could think of, every position, very rough, no boundaries type of situation. I ate her ass multiple times, face-fucking, facials, fingers in her ass, the whole thing. It was the kind of sex where she was screaming so much she actually lost her voice a couple of times. Every time we hooked up it was like that.

After a few hookups though, I started getting the feeling that she might have been catching feelings. Instead of dealing with it directly like an adult, I panicked and ended up ghosting her. Now months later I honestly feel like a total asshole about it.

I keep thinking about it from her perspective. Going from that kind of intense, uninhibited sexual connection to suddenly just being completely ghosted.

So I’m wondering, how would that make someone feel if they were in her position? And after a few months, is there any chance of reaching out to apologize or try to clear the air? Or is ghosting after something like that basically something you can’t really recover from?

For context, we were never official and never had any labels on what we were doing.