i am Angry

i was born angry

i simmered down in college

had a single phone call with my mom

i am so angry again. i want to cut. i want to take all my pills. i want to fucking die. i want out.

i have to see my family next week and i hate my parents i hate how dismissive they are.

they told a cutting 12 year old she was being dramatic and to stop looking for attention. they told a suicidal 13 year old to quit being hormonal and moody.

FUCK i hate this i want to go away. i’m so angry.