Tweaking

Bro I’m still not over this stupid situationship I had, it was my first ever “love”, took my first kiss, got a lil too intimate in bed together for the first time and in general had all my romantic firsts with them but in the end I was told “I really want to be your person but I’m scared” MAAAAANNNN, FUCK!!

It’s been a couple months and we haven’t spoke, I stupidly tried reaching out but nothing came of it other than a small convo to see how the other has been, but as much as I want to get over it I’m still really obsessed and constantly wish things went in a more positive direction

Now the tweaking part, I started a new job and there’s this manager I spoke to a few days ago and holy shit that person looks almost identical to my situationship? Just shorter hair, it’s not the same person as they have different names but seeing someone just like them and almost with the same silly mannerisms as them really just threw oil on the still burning fire and it’s been messing with my mind

I feel like almost a creep because we have spoken about twice so far and I want there to be more instances of us talking 😭I just stare and hope they come over and talk about something with me. This whole thing has me almost sorta depressed because I’m reminded of my old seemingly perfect relationship everytime I see them and I think “fuck…I still really miss this person”

It all sounds dumb when I type it out and I know getting close with a manager would be crazy but god I’d love to talk with them more 😭kill me now