My boyfriend (20m) loves Doggy while it does nothing for me (19f), even maybe makes me uncomfortable and I don't know what to do.

My boyfriend adores doggy more than any other position. He’s tried to initiate it two times and let it go when I said I didn’t want to, and we’ve technically tried it three times when I decided to give it another chance. I don’t know why I keep trying because it always ends with a mishap and me feeling bad.

It’s not that I hate - hate it, but my lack of control and the fact I feel so exposed has always rubbed me the wrong way. Like it was just a requirement, not something that is even supposed to give me enjoyment.

I asked him what appealed to him with the position because I don’t understand - I’d rather be able to see his face and can’t in doggy - and he said he just liked grabbing me like when I’m positioned like that. It honestly felt a little degrading to read and I know he didn’t mean it like that. It’s just I know he likes my butt and it feels like he just wants an excuse to look at it.

I don’t know what to say to him about it, or if there’s a way to make it feel good instead. I really want to like it because he likes it so much, but I feel so dissatisfied after the fact; it makes me feel muddy in my brain. I don’t even fully know why I dislike it so much and it sucks. Is there a way to change this and learn to like it, kinda like how you acquire a taste for coffee?