I hope I'll be able to make it this time

Hi everyone, I'm a compulsive gambler 36 male. I've been gambling for the last 2 years. Roller coaster ride of huge wins and losses. Today it finally sink in that no matter what I do the end result is always the same. Im tired and not interested anymore of winning back my losses from gambling. I mean, I kept grinding to the top to lose it all again. What's the point of doing it all over again. I've done it so many times, it doesn't matter anymore if i win or lose, the result will always be suffering.

I wish you all the best. I'm done, really, not an ounce in me hoping to win anymore through gambling. I feel im about to puke just by thinking about it.