Honestly? I’m mad

I’m pissed at you. I don’t know what to do with what you give me. Like I’m well aware that now is not the time to gain clarity on our situation. We both have a lot going on, but you have always been someone I could turn to. You don’t call. But you’ve never called. And I’ve been married and busy moming- so why would I ever expect you to? Idk why you apologized for not calling. That was never an issue. I’m mad bc you’re sending me weird signals. You literally stayed up till 3am talking to me. 7hrs on the phone. I tried to get off several times, you pushed for more. I stopped making conversation, you kept it going. It felt so nice to talk to a friend so intimately again. You know how isolated I was in my abusive marriage. I’m finally getting out, and I was so happy to feel like we could be friends again. Then you start acting like I’m too much? It was over a month later when I called again? The inconsistency feels weird, and I’m going to listen to it. I know how detrimental it can be when you don’t listen to your gut. It’s weird that you think you can spill things to me and then reject my friendship. It doesn’t sit right, and I’m dropping out. I love myself, and I don’t think I’m too much. I think I’m just right.