Heartbreak

I beg yall to give me some advice, or instill some hard truths/lessons in me. Ever since this girl made eye contact with me (17M) almost every single day last year and eavesdropped me about 10+ times, i thought she had feelings for me, so l've developed heavy feelings for her. Ocassionally since last year, she would stare at me, and look downwards to the left appearing sad or smiling when I make eye contact with her, I thought that she wanted me to approach her. She did this a lot of times that it made me crazy, thinking that she actually had feelings for me. Today, I've decided to asked one of her close friend to ask her if she wanted me to approach her after 7 months of eye contact/staring, and she was in utter disbelief and complete shock, saying it was a misunderstanding, emphasising that we had r interaction at all, she declined to me asking if she

wanted me to approach her first. "ME??

ATTRACTED TO HIM? oh my fkin days" I've been delusional for 7 months, and I'm most likely going to be the new topic for her gossiping. I don't know how to cope with this and fear it would impact my studies as I'm a top student...