Sudden Realization

I've always thought I was being unreasonable for asking my ex to parttake in my love language. I know he loved me but I just wanted to hear him say it from time to time. I wanted to be asked about my day, how I was etc. have him take an interest in me, my life. Get to know me on deeper levels.

I just wanted the basic necessities of love. I never had been truly loved by anyone in my life. I've seen other people receive it but I never do. I get lusted after, I get liked, I've been enjoyed..but never loved. When my own boyfriend refused to do the little things after a few months of dating.. it was painful & I tried to salvage what little I could.

Now I realize I don't want to date not because relationships are simply difficult, but because I would rather be single & not loved, than to be in a relationship & not loved.