One day, maybe not for a while, i'll do it in a beautiful place

I'll jump, far from home or school. I'm okay right now - I have things to look forward to and be excited for, and expectations to fulfil, and people to prove wrong. But I know one day i'll reach a point where I know its my time. I'm not really meant to be alive, I wasn't even supposed to be born, so i'll feel okay and justified in killing myself. Its my decision to make when I feel like I should.

I've tried before when the time was right and it didnt work and had messed some things up for a while - but its okay, i'll do it eventually, I dont care if people understand or not. Everything could be perfect and that's when I would do it.