I just broke up with my girl friend of Two years and it hurts.

I 19M just broke up with my 20F gf. The relationship had so many issues from both sides. Yesterday she texted me about spring break and asked if we were hanging out, we were currently on a break because of an incident that occurred in January.

January event:

she grabbed my phone and ran off with it because I wasn’t talking to her after she told a guy that I was a “friend”. She literally took my phone, ran into the women's bathroom and when i went to get my friend she went out of the building and turned off the location which made me pack up the photography gig I was doing just to get my phone back. I ended up telling her brother to tell her to hand me my phone and things got heated between my friend and her brother. I called her brother later that night and asked him what would he do in this position he told me that women are just like that and they desire attention. He also said he personally if he were in my shoes he'd leave. He told me I needed to also man up because earlier my friend and gf were joking and they started throwing words at each other (they do this everytime) so I decided I won't intervene and I'll talk about it to her later but she was trying to get me to tell my friend to stop while she was proceeding to engage with him. I see my fault in that area. After this I wanted to break up but she cried so much I decided we could go on a break.

So back to spring break after she asked if my friend was coming to place and if he is we should all do something. I said “he's coming” and she replied “soooo” and then I replied with “Yeah if we are able to do something, they have their own plans to go somewhere (not guaranteed)” she then said, it sounds like an excuse, I act weird when my friend comes around and that what does their plan has to do with her. I told her I was genuinely not trying to sound uncaring I was genuinely looking forward to discussing about the spring break and I didn't mean to be that way I stated if because I was unsure if I'd have a car to go out but if I do I definitely want us to do something.

She then recognizes and said she read the message wrong but instead of clearing up what happened or saying sorry for coming at me wrongly she started saying my problem solving skills were nonexistent and that I should have came up with a solution. I took it wrongly and emotionally said it seems likes she is trying to win andi hung up abruptly when she started talking over me multiple times.

Break Up

After hanging up she texted I told her I was sorry for hanging up but it feels like she is still trying to win and I am not ready to talk at the moment. She then said there is nothing to talk about and we should break up and I agreed. (The thing that made it hurt more was that she told a friend and after the friend told her what was wrong she said she would say sorry when it felt right). The next day she called to apologize but I told her we should split up and combined with all our problems we should split up. A few hours later my friend called and told me she was going to file a police report on me due to an incident that happened a while back where I had to remove her from my car after she wouldn't get out for 20 minutes while I had to get to class. I took that as a sign that I should end things. She came to my school and started crying saying “you don't love me” “just say you hate me and so on”. I handed her her things and the she refused to give me mine ($250 and a bracelet I cared about which I gave to her) she began saying if you don't want to be with me why would I make you happy by giving you your things. While I pleaded to get my things she would say “hug me” “kiss me” and I told her no. She then blamed my emotional immaturity for everything that has happened in the relationship and she also went into my car and sat there refusing to move away from it when decided I had to go home. I had to also beg for 20 mins just for her to get out after I pushed the alarm button. She was also digging through my things and forcefully putting herself on me. She drove off with my belongings and that's pretty much it.

List of things that happened in the relationship:

She posted my chat on her story after I told a dude who asked me to prom “no, that would be funny”. (during our talking stage)

I was interacting with a friend who talked about her in a bag way I realized my wrong and cut him off

She told me to new talk to my friends because I told them my side of the relationship.

Laughed about the things she did to hurt me when discussing it with her friends

After seeing porn on my phone after she broke up with me she said the only way I could redeem myself was by losing my virginity. I did it and I regret it, I just sat there motionless while she did it while I was soft. I still remember this day vividly when I begged her many times if there is another way I could make things better she said no. I cried that night and told her it felt like rape but she blamed me for going ahead with it.

Found her telling her guy best friend about manipulation tactics which I read and saw parts she used on me

I currently feel terrible, I don't want to go back. I am reaching out to my old friends and apologizing because all of them warned me yet I stayed and went back and they all distance themselves from me. I am even more sad because she knows my sister and my sister thinks of her as a big sister because of how nice she is to her. I feel terrible I really need help with staying firm because I know we were not right for each other.